bookrandom Chapter 435
Chapter 435
Tears give the answer before the emotions surging in the heart.
Ni Yangzhou was distracted for only a moment, and when he turned his head back, he found himself hugging the person with tears in his eyes.
The warmth of a hug is like the last unburned ash in a winter fire. It may be a little late, but it can still burn a heart that has been waiting for a long time.
Yan Congzhi shouldn't cry. He was now holding the other person completely in his arms, at home, in the room, in his own bed.
But he still couldn't suppress the melancholy rising from his chest. His eye sockets were useless fences, and tears kept flowing up layer by layer.
Now they were embracing each other face to face, but what about the next second, the next moment, the next day, the next year, the next life? Yan Congzhi knew that his wishful thinking was too greedy, but people who fell into it had no reason at all.
Sometimes, if a person is frustrated in love, he or she may call this fear of not being in the other person's future resentment.
If love is a competition, he would have already lost all his armor and knelt down to admit defeat in this long pursuit.
Ni Yangzhou hugged his downtrodden lover in a dejected embrace and saw the transparent buttons scattered on the ground, shining silver in the night.
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Nothing happened that night again.
The man rushed downstairs and took countless doses of suppressant. When he came back, his body was soaked in cold sweat and he looked weaker than ever before. The little strength he had left was only enough to stop Ni Yangzhou's hand from making a phone call. He half-hugged and half-begged him to the bed.
Ni Yangzhou lay straight, with his right arm stretched out, hugging his lover who was more than one size bigger than him. He was like a python, with his waist and abdomen tightly clamped. His chest was also pressing against the other person's big head, which was full of coarse, wet hair.
That night, he slept in an uncomfortable position, but Ni Yangzhou was very happy. Unable to sleep, he reflected on himself in the middle of the night. Thinking back on the past, he seemed to be a worthless person.
Ni Yangzhou, who labeled himself a scumbag, reflected deeply. As a tasker whose ultimate goal was to complete the task, he had been reluctant and worried, but he had never once thought of giving up, no matter when he didn't know the whole story at first, or when he followed his master later.
But from Yan Congzhi's perspective, he was connected to his own tortuous mission because of the constraints of the timeline. Ni Yangzhou himself couldn't count how many times he made choices for his disciple.
He accepted the seemingly unprovoked love from the other person in each world, as if it was supposed to be this way. But looking down from the eyes of the Creator, he could only see a person pursuing something, willing to give up everything he had, just to help the other person achieve their goal, even if the price was sacrificing himself and sacrificing the future they might still have.
Ni Yangzhou patted the man's back in the night, coaxing an awkward but sincere lover who should have been coaxed long ago.
If time could stand still, there would be fewer heartbroken people in the world. Ni Yangzhou pressed against the other person's warm skin, stubbornly trying to make this impending separation seem more relaxed.
After all, they have experienced separation and death too many times.
Ni Yangzhou exhaled, sniffed, and touched the other person's frowning brows with his fingertips, and said in a relaxed manner:
"Use a word to describe you. Do you know what it is?"
Yan Congzhi buried his head in the other's chest, his ear pressed against the chest, feeling the lively beating of the heart over there, counting it one beat at a time. He remained silent after hearing the words, and spoke only after a long time.
"What you say is what it is."
Ni Yangzhou touched the head and heard the other party's indulgence and doting, as well as a little bit of unspoken flattery.
He didn't want this person to be so humble, but he had been planning for a long time, not just for this brief embrace.
"It's 'love-brain'."
Yan Congzhi did not move.
Ni Yangzhou continued:
"It's 'puppy'."
"It's the 'reckless love-brained puppy', the puppy that barks and spins in circles when its owner ignores it, the silly puppy who's willing to do anything for its owner just to get his attention."
Ni Yangzhou hugged the person tighter, and was unwilling to let go even though it made it difficult for him to breathe.
"But the puppy doesn't know that the owner likes the puppy very much too."
"If you have any, you can't tell the puppy yet."