Severing ties with family to marry the young marshal, his whole family chases me to the crematorium.

Chapter 184 Choosing to Die with You

At this moment, even she herself couldn't know for sure what kind of answer she was hoping to hear from Si Jingnian.

In that instant, a strange emotion welled up inside her, making her suddenly feel that she had become so pretentious and so annoying.

Deep down, she desperately wanted to hear Si Jingnian say, "I absolutely cannot bring myself to shoot you."

However, at the same time, reason told her that if Si Jingnian really said that, it would mean that when faced with a life-or-death decision, he might hesitate because he was too sentimental and righteous, thus missing the opportunity to eliminate the God of Bliss and stop him from wreaking havoc on the world.

But if she heard the cold and ruthless words "I will shoot you" from Si Jingnian's mouth, her sensitive and fragile heart would probably be pierced again, and she would begin to doubt how much of Si Jingnian's true feelings for her really were.

In that instant, Shen Qingyao's strong desire to know the answer vanished without a trace, as if blown away by a sudden gust of wind.

"Si Jingnian, please don't answer my question anymore. I suddenly don't want to know anymore!"

Shen Qingyao bit her lip and said in a slightly trembling voice.

She knew very well that what she was doing was actually a form of escapism, but at this moment, she just wanted to be able to indulge herself for once.

Although Shen Qingyao had made it clear that she no longer wanted to know Si Jingnian's inner thoughts, Si Jingnian seemed not to have heard her words. Instead, he fell into deep thought, his expression becoming exceptionally solemn and serious.

After a long while, Si Jingnian slowly raised his head, his gaze fixed firmly and intensely on Shen Qingyao, and said in a low, slightly hoarse voice:

“Ah Yao, I understand. Logically speaking, I should have shot without hesitation in this situation... But when the target is you, I find that I simply cannot bring myself to do it.”

"But I absolutely cannot tolerate any evil entity taking over your body, so... if it really comes to the worst, I would rather die with you."

As he spoke, Si Jingnian's eyes gleamed with a complex light, a mixture of painful struggle and boundless affection.

He wasn't sure what kind of answer Shen Qingyao was hoping for, but at this moment, all he could offer was his most genuine and undisguised thoughts.

In Si Jingnian's view, if the extremely evil Bliss God had successfully possessed her body, the real Shen Qingyao would have already perished.

In that case, even if he were to survive by chance, what would be the point?

The world without his beloved is nothing but a desolate ruin to him.

He found it even more unacceptable that the so-called God of Bliss could manipulate Shen Qingyao's delicate body at will, running rampant and committing evil deeds in this world!

Thinking of this, he clenched his fists tightly, his nails digging deep into his palms, as if he wanted to vent his anger in this way.

At this moment, he had made up his mind that even if he had to use his last bit of strength, he would hold onto that utterly despicable God of Bliss and drag him down into the abyss of hell from which there is no return, never to be reborn!

However, Shen Qingyao was completely unaware of Si Jingnian's intense thoughts deep inside.

After hearing what Si Jingnian said, she felt a surge of indescribable emotions.

I felt neither ecstatic nor heartbroken; there was only an indescribable feeling, like ripples on a calm lake, not intense, but lingering nonetheless.

As for Si Jingnian's response, Shen Qingyao carefully considered it and couldn't find any flaws or illogical points.

Everything sounded so logical that she couldn't refute it. So, she could only silently nod her head to show her approval and understanding.

But at that moment, the surroundings suddenly fell silent, as if time had frozen. Neither of them spoke again, and an awkward atmosphere filled the air.

At this moment, Si Jingnian's gaze remained fixed on Shen Qingyao, closely observing her every move.

When he saw Shen Qingyao simply nodding silently, his heart skipped a beat, and he panicked instantly.

Could it be that my inappropriate words just now upset her?

Thinking of this, Si Jingnian hurriedly opened his mouth to explain:

"Ah Yao, I... I really don't not love you. I just can't bear to see that God of Bliss using your body to do all sorts of wicked things! Please believe me, I..."

Hearing Si Jingnian's urgent explanation, Shen Qingyao slightly raised her head, suppressing the complex emotions surging within her, and forced a smile, softly saying:

“I know you mean well, worried that the God of Bliss might use my body to do evil. I understand all of this, you don’t need to be too nervous.”

Despite expressing understanding and empathy, Shen Qingyao's complex emotions continued to spread and grow, tangled together like a mess of yarn, making it difficult for her to sort them out.

Although she knew perfectly well that Si Jingnian's answer was undoubtedly the wisest and most reasonable.

But for some reason, an indescribable sadness welled up in her heart, making her feel involuntarily a little sad.

At this moment, Si Jingnian was staring intently at Shen Qingyao, who was forcing a smile. His heart was instantly filled with regret, and his face showed a cautious expression, as if he was afraid that he might accidentally hurt her heartstrings again.

"Ah Yao... are you... are you angry with me?"

Si Jingnian asked hesitantly, his voice so soft it was almost inaudible, his eyes filled with concern and unease.

Upon hearing this, Shen Qingyao first sighed deeply, then slowly shook her head.

However, even so, a hint of loneliness and disappointment still flickered in her beautiful eyes.

In fact, she wasn't truly angry, and she genuinely agreed with Si Jingnian's response.

However, at this moment, her state of mind was so complicated that even she herself could not sort out the thoughts in it.

Perhaps... just as she secretly pondered, she was simply an overly sentimental and affected person.

Immediately afterward, Shen Qingyao suddenly raised her head, her gaze fixed intently on Si Jingnian, and said in an extremely solemn and serious tone:

"Si Jingnian, if things unfortunately come to that, I sincerely hope you will remember every word you said today. At that time, please do not hesitate for a moment, and decisively shoot me dead. We must not allow that vicious and wicked God of Bliss to take advantage of me and use my body to do evil and harm the innocent people of this world!"

As she spoke, her expression grew increasingly solemn and dignified, showing no sign of being angry or joking.